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listen up people. i am stuck in a nasty rut. art i see is no longer inspiring. i watch "moving" movies and they stir slight emotion for about an hour. i read books with deep meaningful messages and i'm only in a depressive coma for about a day (it used to be three). i do not miss a lot of people i should be missing. i keep having the same horrifying dream every night. i don't want to eat chipotle. i'm scared i won't feel excitement for a long time, and all i will feel is nostalgia. i need a few days (weeks?) to unwind my complicated thought processes and reasonings.

a ginormous spider runs across my calf and i can't summon any reaction..

my new least favorite word is "inimitable." the existence of that word is beyond pointless to me.